Prayer

Pray: to ask that the laws of the universe be annulled in behalf of a single petitioner confessedly unworthy. -Ambrose Bierce



There are no words to explain the past couple weeks. I’ve so overly busy with life. My family has been hit with heartache. But as always it has brought us closer. I have definitely felt the power of prayer in my life. I have been brought to my knees in tears and have felt my Saviors love. My faith has been tried and tested. And for everything... I am grateful.

life is a choice

i want a camera.

not to start a business.

but to capture life, before it's gone.

in my place

long time no post. i've been m.i.a. for quite some time. i feel as though i never have a chance to just sit and relax and enjoy, and most importantly recuperate. My week consists of dental assisting 8-5, (trying to)working out, making dinner, laundry, sleep(sometimes), weekend theatre job, cleaning, grocery shopping, preparing sunbeam lesson, church, family dinner, and repeat. i wish i had more time... to just listen to good music, see a close friend, catch up with family, sleeeeeep. but i tell myself this will all be worth it. bradley has been busy with school and work. right now he's working towards medical school and i couldn't be any more proud of him. he studies though the night and goes to tutoring. his grades are showing his hard work.

this is charity. she's the sweetest little girl i know. she's gives me endless hugs and smiles and is full of long detailed stories. she is what makes me love being in primary. i know i shouldn't have a favorite...
aaaand this is my baby puppy sawyer! i love him. he's hilariously sweet and entertaining.

24.09.2010

if i could go back and change my wedding dress it would be to this. which can be found here. this dress is gorgeous. and of course i would add a cute jacket to it. and my colors would be Tiffany turquoise, silver and white. and i would have white feathered tulips.

(this is what i think about at work.)

Ten steps...

...to live a Joyful and Enthusiastic Life.

First: Stop putting yourself down. there is a lot that is good in you. empty your mind of thoughts of failure and start seeing yourself as a competent person.

Second: Eliminate self-pity. Think of what you have, instead of dwelling on what you have lost.

Third: Quit thinking about yourself. Think of others. Go out and look for someone who needs the help you can give, and give it freely.

Fourth: Remember the words of Goethe: "He who is firm in will molds the world to himself." God gave humans something called will. Use it.

Fifth: Have a goal and set and achievable timetable to achieve it.

Sixth: Stop wasting your mental energy on the past, and start thinking about what to do now. Amazing things happen you think constructively.

Seventh: Every morning and every evening say these words aloud: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Eighth: Every day say three times: "This is the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it" (Psalms 118:24).

Ninth: Think and practice joy every day.

Tenth: Get enthusiasm; think enthusiasm; live enthusiastically!

-Norman Vincent Peale

saturday

For those of you who don't know, i have a second job. I work at the Hale Centre Theatre on the weekends. I work in the box office selling tickets, handing out tickets, exchanging tickets, printing tickets and etc. It's a really fun job and pretty low key, i deal with a lot of different people everyday. Well every once in awhile i have a patron that i recognize or think i know. Most of the time i don't know how i know someone or from where i know them, but today was the exception! An older gentleman walked in wanting to pick up his eleven tickets for the matinee today. I looked up and was blown away. Instantly i got a bad case of the creeps. I helped the gentleman like nothing was wrong and gave him my biggest smile. who was this man you may ask...Okay. it wasn't t-bag. but the man must have been his twin! eeek!

mondayy

it happened!

ring of death :(

which means no more

and ultimately means no more

at least until it's fixed...

holding onto water

i feel the need to blog. my head is so full of things i should give updates about but i cant seem to put my thoughts into words. life has been getting back to normal since my amazing trip to Roatan. it truly was the trip of a lifetime. i fell in love with diving. i can not explain how truly peaceful, beautiful and awe-inspiring it is beneath the ocean's surface. i felt like i was in a completely different world. my Roatan experience was filled with beautiful country, awesome people, beautiful beaches and lovey jungles, swimming with 30 feet whales sharks in deep blue ocean, zip lining though the jungle, rummaging through ocean front shops, the most beautiful sunsets, and having no sense of time or stress... brad and i felt the need to expand our family. i said baby, he said puppy. soooo we got a puppy! haha. little sawyer james pico (yes, i loveee Lost, but my sawyer is not named after the sawyer. although i thought the middle name would be funny) was born may 10th and found his way to our home on july 4th! we love him, he's the cutest little puppy. he fits into our family with his little blonde hair and sweet countenance. he's a long haired miniature dachshund! yes, he's a "wiener" dog. but not really. he wont look as weird as the typical wiener dog. haha. he'll stay fluffy, cute, and small!

lastly, i feel the need to express my gratitude for music. i hope i dont sound silly. it calms my nerves, helps me express feelings, brings back sweet memories and sometimes even makes me cry. i turned on my itunes this morning and stumbled upon an album one of my dear sweet old best friend's made me. i have been listening to it all day. i can help but remember my friendship with him and all of our fun adventures. the sweet sounds of death cab, bright eyes, the shins, pinback, iron and wine, ugly casanova and rocky votolato help me feel at home and grounded. i would have never thought this album would still effect me like it did five years ago.

this is life before you know who youre gonna be

five days from today i will be scuba diving in roatan! i cannot wait! i have never been to an island paradise let alone left the country... brad and i have been non-stop working and are definitely ready for a break. and if you are anything like me you probably don't know where roatan is... haha. sooooo there...

also, i've been hanging out with emmmma a lot. my bestest friend in the whole world, forever and always. haha, she makes me happy and takes me to qt five times a day and walks aimlessly through target with me. and listens to all my problems and concerns without judgement. there is no one else like her!

i cant wait till sunday :(

i LOVE lost. i dont want it to end. i want all my questions answered.

kate drives me crazy!!!

but if i were her i probably wouldnt do anything different.

2 hour finale this sunday...

hey soul sister

i love funfetti cookies almost as much as i love seeing

my bestfriend everyday.

this week has flown by...

OH, and i'm going here in a month!

i cant wait for a break.

this time is the last time

i love my little niece's and i wish i could see them moreeee.

i wish i was a better aunt, a better friend and a better sister.

i'm going to try my hardest to be better.

p.s. i loveeee you

have you ever gotten a sad sick feeling in the pit of your stomach that you just couldn't shake? yeah, that's how i felt through this whole movie. SAD. i've been wanting to see this movie forever. and the whole time i was wishing he would not be dead anymore and it would be some sad sick little joke - it wasn't. i was depressed all sunday. my heart goes out to those that have lost their significant others. i pray this never happens to me :(

bettter late then never

Our Valentine's Day.

and yes, those are pink waffles.

always love

To make a mountain of your life is just a choice

But I never learned enough to listen to the voice that told me

Always love?

Hate will get you every time

Always love?

Don't wait til the finish line

Slow demands come 'round

Squeeze the air and keep the rest out

It helps to write it down

Even when you then cross it out

But Always Love?

Hate will get you every time

Always Love

Even when you wanna fight

Self-directed lives

I want to know what it'd be like to aim so high above

Any card that you've been dealt, you...Always Love?

Hate will get you every time

Always Love? Hate will get you?

I've been held back by something

Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs,

You said? Hey, you good ones.

To make a mountain of your life is just a choice

But I never learned enough

To listen to the voice that told me...Always love?

Hate will get you every time

Always love? hate will get you?

I've been held back by something

-Nada Surf

dilemma

how does a pepsi zero lover

and a diet coke lover

live in the same house? ... i dont know.

too much time in the kitchen

i have been in a baking mood lately. i made banana bread and brownies in the last hour! my in-laws bought me a kitchen aid and i loveeee using it. although everything i make goes to waste because there is no way brad and i can eat all the food i make. my mom always cooked for six and as i follow her meal portions i find myself with way too much food for two people. which makes sense... anyway. tonight is brad's "halo night" which consists of boys coming over and playing various xbox games. halo night happens to be a good thing tonight because all the brownies are gone! haha, i always feel a sense of accomplishment when the food i make is eaten.

also i loveee butt rolls. if you have never had these then you are missing out.

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simple pleasures

we have been watching Lost non-stop. i have quckily collected the first four seasons... i cannot believe i have never seen this show, it's amazing!




also. i have a new favorite bra! is that weird?! i hope not. the best part is how i got it at target on clearence for $2.49!!!! can you believe it?! i wish everything wonderful in this world was that affordable.

recent happenings

i dont even know where to start. i have been sooo busy lately...

I passed my two x-ray exams and now have my x-ray certification! Christmas was awesome. Brad and i celebrated our first Christmas. we bought a little four foot tree and enjoyed buying presents for each other. i bought him tons of movies, shirts, candy and workout stuff. he bought me a robe, lotions, candy, car mats... and an air freshener. haha. we spent the day with his my family and with his. his parents gave me a kitchenaid mixer and gave brad tons of camping gear.

my sister and her babies came down for Christmas and were able to be here for two weeks! it was great spending time with our little nieces.


we celebrated our ONE YEAR anniversary! the year came and went soooo fast! we defrosted the top of our wedding cake and attempted to eat it. it was soggy and freezer burned. hah

last weekend brad's sister got married. we were at the sealing and it reminded me of our own... it was great spending time with brad's family and we are so happy for annamarie and jeff!