end of de de december

two days left, i think. im not focusing on counting... im focusing on what's left to do and what time they need to be done. i cant wait for this weekend. my internet has been down for a few days and i feel as though nothing really has changed in the facebook/blogger world. hah. i had a fun bachlorette lunch thing and tons of hanging out with emma. and shopping and not working out. i think i've gained a few pounds :( right before my wedding too. GREAT. ohhh, i talked to chantry!!!! he called me his bf. it warmed my heart <3 i also got to talk to him about some things that happened today, it was good.



anyway, today had been full of new things. i think im just going go to bed and take it all in...

(i wish i had a treebed)

home-y

i want shnazzy house stuff for christmas/birthdayyy.

and i found such amazing stuff at urban!

loveeeeee it.

i want this shower curtain ^^^


and these tumblers are reallllllly cool.

(i.e. tumblers are cups. i didnt know that till recently)

bird oven mitts ^^^

mixing bowls!

andddd of course PLATES.

bleachblonde

she pulls this off so beautifully
hmmm...

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the light, pt II

And regardless, in the evening
A light is thrown by the setting sun
It speeds along this vast familiar
And silently crosses everyone
It's the light that's changing
It's the light that's changing
It's the light that's changing
It's only the light
Across the gardens, across the schoolyards
Across the chapels where lovers have leapt
Across the table in our old kitchen
Across the cities where our future slept
It's the light that's changing
It's the light that's changing
It's the light that's changing
It's only the light
What can I do to defy you
What can I do to deny you
'cause I want no part of this breaking
This is a hurtful mistake you are making
And to me this love was true and shining
These years were real and defining
Please don't forget how much I meant to you
When you are redefined by someone new
Across what's left of these old places
Across the playgrounds where old friends play
Across the lines on familiar faces
Across the nothing that we say
It's the light that's breaking
It's the light that's breaking
It's the light that's breaking
It's only the light

nineteen days

today has been a good and eventful day.

twenty days

somedays go by slower then others...

i got my name change kit in the mail today.

don't tell me i've lost control

They call holidays an option for a reason
I heard you're coming back to life just for the fourth
I've been catching all your ghosts for every season
I pray to god you won't come back here anymore
Do you pray with him, too?
They should deliver all my blessings
In small brown paper handbags near the porch
I wished I'd known that you were bleeding while I sat
And watched you reading with the lord
I read with him, too
When you look at me
I'll be digesting your legs
Cause I can hardly see
What's in front of me these days
And those days, too.
I've got to take what I'm making
And turn it into something
I've got to take what I'm making
And turn it into something
For you
I've got to break what I'm making
And turn it into nothing
I've got to break what I'm making
And turn it into nothing
For you
God, where have you been?

"she loves her c"

things are weird. but settling. we made a gingerbread house last night, i wanted to eat it.

emmma is coming on friday! we are going to go to temple lights and i can't wait. Christmas is coming so fast and i feel prepared for it! hahah. i love monday's. why do i love mondays? hmm... cause it's chantry email day!!! he always brings a huge smile and laugh to my face. he's a terrible speller and so am i. it's awesome. he's my bestfriend's cousin which makes him my bestfriend too... but even if he wasn't emma's cousin I'm sure i would still love him the same. i am so proud of him. and i miss him more with every email. i wish he was here for my wedding.

huge

a lot has been happening. i have barely been sleeping and i feel as though i'm floating on some invisible strange cloud of restless...ness. it is kind of unsettling. i finnished my christmas shopping and i got new boots! and some clothes, naturally. also, brad and myself took a step closer to becoming a family! haha, we are now on a family plan...as in our phones are. i got a new blackberry and a new number! it's been hard getting adjusted to my pretty red phone. also, invites are out! freaking finally. i miss emma. i get to see her in a week! yayyyy.

my new phone^^

and new sweater!

we're down to less then a month.

careful

life is short.
really, it truly is.

i want to be at home curled in a big soft blanket next to my fiance.
not at a cold bright hospital.

what comes easy never stays

i would kill for

• old jimmy eat world
• 44 oz. diet coke
• episode of friends
• simplicity
• to be careless
• YOUTH
  
  

rainy day/life in technicolor

this weekend has been full of major ups and downs. thanksgiving with the pico's and sleepover with bestfriend. im so happy i got to spend time with emma. i love her more everytime i see her. i cant wait for her to come home again in three weeks. we went shopping and went to qt quite a bit. we also saw twilight (twice for me) and let me tell you, I LOVED IT SO MUCH. if you didnt like it the first time go see it again. amazingggg. we had a sleepover and watched elf. we went to amado's(?) emma got a bean and cheese burrito, it looked delicious. we went to walmart at talked in the parking lot and then ran in and got sugar cookies. i miss her already. we talked and shared secrets and it felt like old times. except, these secrets made me think too much... anyways. i got home this morning and was bored so i made chocolate cake with milk chocolate chips. thennnn i made HOMEMADE cream cheese frosting. i'm so proud of myself. i'm taking the cake to brad's so that they can eat it for me. haha. anyways... i want to go shopping and buy cute boots, cardigans, coats and flannel tshirts.
tonight me and brad are going to work out and watch movies and hopefully play games with his family. we dominated thursday! haha

twilight

ohmygosh these pictures are amazing. at first i didnt like the movie at all, the acting sucked hardcore. but i have faith that it will get better through out the next movies. other than the crappy acting, awkward-ness, major leave-outs and total make-ups the movie was really good. i shall see it again. ALSO, music was spectacular. did i my ears behold RADIOHEAD in the ending credits?!?! i think soooooooo.

magritte