twentyfive thingys

i need to do this right. my "twenty five things" on facebook was lame-o. so i'm taking another shot at it.

25THINGSs

1. every time i hear a death cab for cutie song my soul literally rises out of my body and re-lives surreal and sweet memories.
2. i am so shy. it's painful. i come off, sometimes, as being a brat or stuck up. and I AM SOOOO NOT. i swear. talk to me and give me a chance. hah
3. when i was little i would lay in bed at night and see colorful lights and stars when i closed my eyes. it was crazy. i am crazy for even admitting this.
4. i LOVE diet coke. too much. i could drink it all day every day.
5. when i met brad i promised myself i would not marry him. i think i did that cause i knew i would... and i was scared.
6. junior high was the worst. i hated it. i was frumpy, awkward, large, and super super unattractive. no freakin joke.
7. when princess diana died i cried and prayed that i could take her place. HAHA. i'm tell ling you- i was weird! maybe even a little morbid?
8. i used to weigh myself six times a day. now i'm down to once every two days.
9. when things go wrong i shrink into myself and remember times when things were "good". or i think of how things could be different. i shouldnt do this...
10. i constantly miss my "x". i feel that as it fade so does the past
11. i always say freshman year was the best- but it wasnt. i would have to say sophomore year, because it when i realized things could be different and that i could survive in any situation- change is inevitable. alsoooo that's when i met my best girl, emma.
12. i used to eat dirt out of my grandparents tomato garden.
13. i secretly want children. definitely not anytime soon. give it five years- we want to travel!
14. i'm still waiting for something amazingly unbelievable to happen to me or someone in my family.
15. people used to tell me all the time that i was "intimidating" and i HATED it. and never believed it.
16. i am so very emotional. i wish i knew how to not cry and not care.
17. I LOVE THE CHURCH. i love the gospel. i love God and Jesus Christ. i know the church is true and i always have, despite my strayings. and will never leave or deny it. Going to the temple was one of the best experiences of my life.
18. i could spend hours in a book store. i love reading and learning new things, retaining new information helps me feel whole.
19. when i was younger my neighbor and i sat on my front porch arguing for hours about who's copy of the little mermaid was better. and i won.
20. i have three best friends. i sleep next to one, miss the second everyday and cant talk to the third.
21. peanut butter and bread are my weakness. chunky peanut butter to be exact.
22. i am never content nor pleased with my hair color. i want my brown back. but i know i'll go blonde again eventually.
23. i drew a picture for diversity day, in fourth grade, and won a $50 dollar savings bond. i cashed it in last year and got eighteen bucks.
24. i cannot wait to have a house. and to decorate and paint it and make it my own. then get a puppy!
25. i am obsessed with learning crazy facts that are totally pointless but sometimes come in handy.